Guppy Brain

Well, I said I had to be held accountable.  So here goes. :)

Today I ate:

• All-natural fruit leather thingy - 45 kcals
• Black beans - 90
• Bell peppers - 15
• Black bean dip - 50
• Sticky rice - 100
• Zucchini marinara frozen meal - 110
• 4 Crystal Light packets in water - 40 kcals

TOTAL: 440 kcals

Not bad. My guppy brain forgot there were calories in Crystal Light, so I drank that shit like it was being taken off the shelves tomorrow for good.  Whoops.  But, honestly, I think I'm okay with that.  It helps me avoid eating, it helps me feel like I've had something sweet, and it alone accounted for two liters of water in my body.  (They tell me drinking water is a good thing...)

I also walked on the beach for a while again, with Zoe and Sophia.  My feet still feel salty.  *wiggles toes*

I haven't told my roommate (Anne, I've known her for 17 years) anything that went on with he-who-shall-not-be-named, and I don't think I will.  Not because I don't trust her, not because I mind her knowing - I don't.  I've already talked Zoe's ear off about it.  

Just because I don't feel like talking about it again, and definitely not tonight.  It's been a not-horrifying day. I've only wanted to slice my fatty flesh off a few dozen times, I've only wanted to crash into telephone poles a handful of times.  But if I have to talk to anyone else about this, and answer questions... I won't sleep.  And I need my sleep.